This is my last post of 2013. I can’t say 2013 was the best year of my life but it certainly wasn’t the worst. 2012 was way rough compared to 2013. This past year I’ve struggled with depression and made it through med adjustments, therapy sessions that were at times intense and at other times full of relief. There isn’t a time that I think of both my doctor and my therapist that I don’t thank God above for placing them both in my life. Without that combo I honestly don’t know where I’d be right now.
I was reading over past blog entries specifically dealing with depression and I’m so thankful I’m not in that dark place anymore. I’m thankful to feel more like “me”. Good moods are not taken for granted anymore but are recognized and enjoyed to the fullest. I’m incredibly grateful for my friends and family (both online and in person). Words fail to describe how I feel about my choir family. I love our fellowship and the friends I’ve made through the choir. They are all very strong people who pray for me without me even asking.
I also don’t know where I’d be without my husband. He’s received quite the education in dealing with a wife fighting depression. And he’s been wonderful, I’m not just saying that he really has been.
I didn’t set out to make this a “thankful” post but it looks like it’s heading in that direction and that’s ok. These and many more blessing have followed me this past year through the laughter and the tears. “Silly” questions I’ve asked and wonderful friends who have an answer. I am looking forward to 2014 beginning; I think 2013 has had enough and is tired but I hope she goes off quietly and without a huge bang to anyone.
I’m not one for New Year’s Resolutions at all. But there is one I would really, really like to keep and that is to spread the Gospel and be more bold in my faith. We are called to make disciples and I’m am ridiculously intimidated by that command. I know the Holy Spirit will be with me when the opportunity arises and will give me the “right” things to say. I need to trust and submit. Maybe those 2 actions should also be part of my “Resolution”. Yes I think they shall be.
We are ringing in the new year with a small party, a gathering of friends and family and friends that are more like family than anything else. I love it. I love that people want to come to our house and celebrate with us, I love that we have such people to get together with and be comfortable, laugh, have fellowship, talk and laugh some more and usher in a New Year.
Good bye 2013.
Happy New Year!