It’s been quite some time since I last blogged. To be honest I wasn’t feeling all that well depression wise. I didn’t realize the depression was back and was just going through the motions. It took a very honest session with my therapist and her literally telling me to call my doctor. That I needed to see him and have things taken care of. I didn’t realize how detached I had become. My husband did mention how quiet I’d become but I didn’t have the insight to see how things, how I had become. I did see my doctor and he introduced a new (to me) med and I’m happy to announce I am feeling much better much more present in life if that makes sense. I didn’t realize I was just going through the motions and trying to pretend all was well. Now that I’m feeling better I’m actually enjoying my life, my husband, my children. It’s nice to be present. I even cut my hair. Short. Really short. And I love it. A few people in person felt the need to reassure me that “it will grow back”. The depressed me would have gotten angry at such a statement, the me of today laughs at such. I mean seriously it’s only hair and I meant to have it cut like this it wasn’t a tragic hair accident.
Thomas’ prom is coming up at the end of this month and we’re really looking forward to it. It’s just the coolest to see him and all the other kids dressed up and having such a great time.