My birthday is tomorrow. I’ll be 48. I know a woman never reveals her age but I don’t believe in being an inauthentic person. If you read my blog you know there’s not much I don’t talk about for better or for worse.
Tomorrow I’m going to lunch with my girls and my mom. I’m really looking forward to being together again. We were together yesterday at my sister’s house for Easter which was really nice. My sister and her husband did a great job preparing all the food for all of us. Especially since Wendy sprained her ankle the day before. Bad timing. I hope she feels better ASAP.
So…48 years. It’s funny because as anyone will say I don’t “feel” 48 or that I am “flirting with 50”. This past year was a year of new beginnings for me. I started a new job doing something I said I wouldn’t do again. So new employment, new appreciation for my training and knowledge as a nurse, and increased and new faith in entrusting Jesus with my life. I’ve been a Christian my whole life but it wasn’t until May 2016 did I pray and literally hand over my life to The Lord.
This past year was also a new beginning for us as a family with Thomas moving into his group home. It’s been an adjustment for all of us. And we’ve all had to adjust our expectations and what we thought it would be like to have our son live so close by. It’s definitly not a bad thing, it’s all good but I had a certain vision of what it would be like to have him be so geographically close. That vision has been adjusted and tweaked to the reality of who Thomas is and who I am. And it’s still good, just different.
What can I hope for in this coming year? To see more of what God has in store for me definitely. To have Him open my eyes more to His Glory and to have my life be a testimony to His goodness and grace. I hope for more happy memories with my family and more experiences that bring us closer to God and each other. I also yearn for more education in my life, I’d love to return to school and take college courses towards my bachelors degree in nursing. Something I started 20 years ago but didn’t pursue due to life getting in the way.
In my 47th year of life we renovated our house, something that was years in the planning. Tommy and I are both so happy that we took the plunge and had it done. I do believe God had his hand on that project as He is in charge of everything in my life. The project went very smooth with no arguing between my husband and myself. We made solid joint decisions and we were always on the same page. You hear of couples having a difficult time during a big renovated, I’m thankful that didn’t happen to us.
This past year of my life also saw the passing of my father. I can’t even write that without tearing up still. We had our first holiday without him present yesterday for Easter. I missed him as I’m sure the rest of my family did. There was extra left over wine due to his absence. Daddy loved his zifendel. I hurt more over the loss of my father more than I ever thought possible. I cry more than I ever thought possible in the easiest ways possible. I am secure in my faith that we will meet again and I’m comforted by the fact that he is enjoying everlasting life with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. He hasn’t really died but has changed the way and where his soul is living and I know he is watching over us all. We will meet again.
Im looking forward to my 48th year believe it or not. God is so good I have faith that He has much in store for me.