Yes I braved the mall today. It was already crowded by 11 a.m. Thank goodness I was able to get done what I needed to and hightail it put of there. I’m sure I’m not the only one who faced this or will face the mall within the next few days. I’m almost done. Almost. That stinks in my book. I just want to be finished and relax and try to enjoy the season.
My mood hasn’t been the greatest. I’m crabby and the depression seems to be rearing it’s ugly head. I’m getting tired of this depression business to be honest. I don’t want to write a depressing post but I need to say a couple of things. That I’m tired of meds that stop working effectively and I’m tired of side effects.
I’m trying to look at the “little” things that make me smile. Watching my youngest write out a Christmas card to her teacher, my son’s face when he arrives home and overhearing my older girls say they, “Can’t wait until Christmas”.
Is it bad that I can’t think of more? I feel like I’m supposed to be overflowing with peace, love and joy when in reality I’m crabby and irritable trying to figure out when everything will get “done”.
This mood shall pass and I’ll soon be happy with the joy of Christmas and remembering that He came to save us. That we are celebrating the birth of our Saviour and Lord. I want to shine for Him, not be the crabby person I am right now. I wish my heart were lighter while shopping to allow the glory of God to shine through. I wish for the Holy Spirit to move me in such a way I trip over myself in enthusiasm to serve. I Praise Him, Praise the Lord, the Great I Am.